Dear Friends,
Today, I've been asked a few times to comment on my feelings as a retiree. Well, either it's too early to tell, or I'm too busy preparing fro my move. I'm sure, feelings, whatever they may be, will emerge the last week of August, when I don't have a classroom to set up, a program to develop or students to greet. Until then, it's like any other summer. I'll dance away the first Saturday night, take a week to unwind, and work on losing the 7 pounds that I gained in June. I will also shop for items less likely to be found in Cobourg, such as $$$ brassieres and $$$ Egyptian cotton bedsheets! And of course, I'll continue blogging!
Saturday, 28 June 2014
Friday, 27 June 2014
Tuesday, 24 June 2014
Overwhelmed!
Dear Friends,
As tension rises at work (appropriate placement of students, exchanging OSR's, graduation, colleagues with short fuses, including myself, and most importantly, keeping students productively occupied), I'm gaining weight by the hour. My perfect size 8 is nowhere to be seen. Food and drink binging are out of control. I'm so disappointed in myself! All that hard work with my personal trainer, and sacrifices I made last summer, are sailing away on a ship named Overwhelmed! Three more days......
As tension rises at work (appropriate placement of students, exchanging OSR's, graduation, colleagues with short fuses, including myself, and most importantly, keeping students productively occupied), I'm gaining weight by the hour. My perfect size 8 is nowhere to be seen. Food and drink binging are out of control. I'm so disappointed in myself! All that hard work with my personal trainer, and sacrifices I made last summer, are sailing away on a ship named Overwhelmed! Three more days......
Post Dinner Snack - YUMMY!
Sunday, 22 June 2014
Moving Styles!
Dear Friends,
Relocating is approaching! Time to bring out the clutter that was hidden from the potential buyers' eyes, and start packing! Efficiency demands that I sort and classify wisely, e.g., putting what should be stored in the basement, in the trunks, separate winter clothes from summer garments, and place all the photos, souvenirs and cards in clearly labelled boxes. There are two ways about this, do it here in Toronto, or throw everything into the moving truck, and take my time sorting things out in my new home. I'm sure either method is a definite personality trait. The question remains, which person do I want to be; the one who puts in the time and the effort now, enjoys her unpacking later, or the one who enjoys the present, and pays for it in the future! A few years ago I wouldn't have hesitated, but today, it seems that my shrinking prefrontal cortex is whispering, live for the moment, live for the moment!
That was my state of mind, last weekend!
This weekend, I'm completely a different person!
Since I've been running around like a chicken with its head cut off, people keep reassuring me that very soon, I'll have all the time in the world! I'm not sure if I like that idea! My head doesn't do well with too much time on my hands. Thus, I decided to continue running around like a chicken with its head cut off, in Cobourg as well! I've already secured myself a volunteer position at Northumberland Art Gallery, expressed my desire to write regularly for the Northumberland News (it has published me already once). Applying to the make-up counter at Sears, is next.
In order to stop associating retirement with dying, I decided to call my move, resignation! No, there will not be time in Cobourg to unpack and sort my belongings leisurely. This is a new phase, not the last! And, nothing says, I'm a lady on-the-go, better than a Lili-Pad (my personalized iPad, a gift from my students)!
Relocating is approaching! Time to bring out the clutter that was hidden from the potential buyers' eyes, and start packing! Efficiency demands that I sort and classify wisely, e.g., putting what should be stored in the basement, in the trunks, separate winter clothes from summer garments, and place all the photos, souvenirs and cards in clearly labelled boxes. There are two ways about this, do it here in Toronto, or throw everything into the moving truck, and take my time sorting things out in my new home. I'm sure either method is a definite personality trait. The question remains, which person do I want to be; the one who puts in the time and the effort now, enjoys her unpacking later, or the one who enjoys the present, and pays for it in the future! A few years ago I wouldn't have hesitated, but today, it seems that my shrinking prefrontal cortex is whispering, live for the moment, live for the moment!
That was my state of mind, last weekend!
This weekend, I'm completely a different person!
Since I've been running around like a chicken with its head cut off, people keep reassuring me that very soon, I'll have all the time in the world! I'm not sure if I like that idea! My head doesn't do well with too much time on my hands. Thus, I decided to continue running around like a chicken with its head cut off, in Cobourg as well! I've already secured myself a volunteer position at Northumberland Art Gallery, expressed my desire to write regularly for the Northumberland News (it has published me already once). Applying to the make-up counter at Sears, is next.
In order to stop associating retirement with dying, I decided to call my move, resignation! No, there will not be time in Cobourg to unpack and sort my belongings leisurely. This is a new phase, not the last! And, nothing says, I'm a lady on-the-go, better than a Lili-Pad (my personalized iPad, a gift from my students)!
Wednesday, 18 June 2014
Blink! Blink!
Dear Friends,
Today, the inevitable has happened. Voice cracked and Tears rolled down! I bet, I looked like a poor old lady with 9 cats, crying over spilled milk!
Had I known I was going to be thanked and sent off by the parents' association, with a speech, a bottle of good red and a gift card, I would've probably not dressed better (I have nothing to wear), but at least, I would've blown dry my hair! My colleagues also surprised me. A standing ovation! I cried harder.
I don't even remember what was said about me, I was busy watching my academic career flash before my eyes. I must admit, I felt like a movie star receiving a lifetime achievement award!
Is it really over? It seems as if it were only yesterday, that I attended my first class at University of Toronto. Blink ..., Blink ...
At the moment, the only thing that's keeping me from totally falling apart, is editing the Report Cards!
Today, the inevitable has happened. Voice cracked and Tears rolled down! I bet, I looked like a poor old lady with 9 cats, crying over spilled milk!
Had I known I was going to be thanked and sent off by the parents' association, with a speech, a bottle of good red and a gift card, I would've probably not dressed better (I have nothing to wear), but at least, I would've blown dry my hair! My colleagues also surprised me. A standing ovation! I cried harder.
I don't even remember what was said about me, I was busy watching my academic career flash before my eyes. I must admit, I felt like a movie star receiving a lifetime achievement award!
Is it really over? It seems as if it were only yesterday, that I attended my first class at University of Toronto. Blink ..., Blink ...
At the moment, the only thing that's keeping me from totally falling apart, is editing the Report Cards!
Friday, 13 June 2014
Ontario's Feel Good Town!
Dear Friends,
I sincerely believe that one of the most sacred human
relationships is the bond between a teacher and his or her students. Perhaps
it’s because I deem connecting with the child to be more important than
imparting knowledge. When my students found out that I was retiring, they wanted
to know where I was going, why, and what I was going to do.
Instead of telling them about my wish to live by the
lake, being the master of connecting anything and everything to the Ontario
Curriculum (I make up in creativity what I lack in knowledge), I planned a
field-trip to Cobourg, to prove to them that, indeed, dreams do come true!
As excitement took over our classroom for the following few weeks, first,
we researched, read and wrote about Cobourg. Then, we displayed our knowledge, and paintings of the lake and the lighthouse, on the board outside our classroom, for everyone to see and envy!
Although I knew I had nine parent-volunteers and a lifeguard accompanying
us, the night before our journey to Cobourg, I had to take valerian. The park,
the beach, the drive on the highway, what was I thinking!
The bus trip was long, but lively. Since I had forbidden electronic games and iPods, students were engaged in making accessories with designer Duck Tapes and playing with Top Trumps (both of which I hear are the hottest items on the non-electronic market). Sketching pads and reading materials occupied third and fourth places. From Port Hope to Cobourg children’s patience runneth over.
Singing led to wanting to get up and moving around the bus.
It was impossible to start our tour of Cobourg, without first visiting the washrooms and the playground.
We strolled on the boardwalk, looking at the boats. I could hear everyone's delight at the vastness of the nature that surrounded us. Pictures were taken, memories were being made. Everyone was excited for me, promising to knock on my door, one day.
Finally, we made our way to Art Gallery of Northumberland in Victoria Hall, where Irene, our tour guide was waiting for us. Students were absolutely taken by Pat Stanley's new work, Reality Check. It was so lucky that she herself was present, and could talk to a few students and parents about her artistic vision. I was so proud of my students for asking and answering questions, showing their appreciation for art. We also got to visit the courtroom and, what we liked to call, the ballroom.
As we made our way back to Victoria Park, where we had our picnic, I showed everyone my favourite spots on King Street, including the Oasis. And then, Mother Nature decided to be mean to us! We didn’t get to have ice cream, or dip our toes in the water, although most of us did play barefoot on the cold, damp sand.
We strolled on the boardwalk, looking at the boats. I could hear everyone's delight at the vastness of the nature that surrounded us. Pictures were taken, memories were being made. Everyone was excited for me, promising to knock on my door, one day.
Finally, we made our way to Art Gallery of Northumberland in Victoria Hall, where Irene, our tour guide was waiting for us. Students were absolutely taken by Pat Stanley's new work, Reality Check. It was so lucky that she herself was present, and could talk to a few students and parents about her artistic vision. I was so proud of my students for asking and answering questions, showing their appreciation for art. We also got to visit the courtroom and, what we liked to call, the ballroom.
As we made our way back to Victoria Park, where we had our picnic, I showed everyone my favourite spots on King Street, including the Oasis. And then, Mother Nature decided to be mean to us! We didn’t get to have ice cream, or dip our toes in the water, although most of us did play barefoot on the cold, damp sand.
The ride back home seemed even longer. Fresh air, exercise and post
thundershower trauma, had worn down
everyone, including the adults. The rain-kissed faces looked tired. A few had their eyes closed, heads resting on each other’s shoulders. Scattered towels, flip-flops, socks, t-shirts and snacks peeking through the open bags, made the bus look like the tail end of a very successful slumber party.
Now, Cobourg has 20 little fans who will never forget their
first trip to Ontario’s Feel Good Town!
But, what matters to me most, is that 20 children will grow up knowing that they mattered so much to their grade three teacher, that she just had to share her dream with them.
Sunday, 8 June 2014
Singing The Blues
Dear Friends,
Celebrations are over, evidences are posted on Facebook walls, and Thank You cards have already reached their destinations. With only one field-trip, one staff party and 15 working days left to the finish line, I feel my anxiety rising. Everyone is reassuring me that, once I move and settle down in Cobourg, I'll be fine, but will I? Anxiety has always turned a deaf ear to reason and logic. I thought, better than putting the last period on the last report card of the last term, would be putting the last period on the last report card, period! Alas! My brain might be saying one thing, but my heart is singing the blues. I'm giving up the only thing that I was so good at, being a teacher. Why?
I'm not much of a traveller, looking after myself is not my forte, neither is helping others live their lives, like move to France and take care of my elderly mother or cook and clean for my son here. What exactly I'm going to fill up this hole with, more neurosis, guilt, self-loathing?
Celebrations are over, evidences are posted on Facebook walls, and Thank You cards have already reached their destinations. With only one field-trip, one staff party and 15 working days left to the finish line, I feel my anxiety rising. Everyone is reassuring me that, once I move and settle down in Cobourg, I'll be fine, but will I? Anxiety has always turned a deaf ear to reason and logic. I thought, better than putting the last period on the last report card of the last term, would be putting the last period on the last report card, period! Alas! My brain might be saying one thing, but my heart is singing the blues. I'm giving up the only thing that I was so good at, being a teacher. Why?
I'm not much of a traveller, looking after myself is not my forte, neither is helping others live their lives, like move to France and take care of my elderly mother or cook and clean for my son here. What exactly I'm going to fill up this hole with, more neurosis, guilt, self-loathing?
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